My Mother and Motherly Issues ...

As your mother, I just want you to learn your lesson!

When I'm a mother, I will be nothing like you.

Yes, you say that now, but just wait.

Imagine what kind of mother said that to her daughter. Or try to cinsider why would a daughter said something like that to her mother.

Maybe because her mother argue with hers before

It wasnt up to you to decide what kind of live i should have

what does it means to be a mother than to make sure that her daughter has to life hes destiny

but i want to create my own destiny.. But that would have meant losing you, and i was always too afraid to do that

Do you want to be like your mother? Be anything like her. Personally modelling her? Be exactly the kind of wife and mum your mother is? Most of a daughter would say so. Me not. Like the girl above, I will give my best effort to not be like her! Oke, it's not nothing like her. It just mostly not her. She's no longer my role model since I dont know, junior high?

Why must a mother feel that she had to figure out her child destiny and fate? Why cant a mother let her child to learn and grow by herself, with her being there when they needed her, but not be them, or decided where to go and what to do? Most of this kind of mother will shout to me "you dont have a right to say! you're not a mother yet! when you're a mother you'll know."

Yes, I hope I will. I hope I will know when to lean on and when to lean back. I hope I know when to be just rigth where I supposed to be. I hope I will know what to say and when to say. I hope I will know too when to be quiet and listen. And I really do hope that I will remember how it was to be a daughter that her mother disbeliefe and doubting.

I wanna be a better mother and I know I wil. I have my journals to remind me. I learned my developmental Psychology. I figured out my feeling. I know. I have to.

Do I hate my mother? I love her. It just that I hate her when she's pulling herself that I hate from her. She hesitate me. She controls me in many ways. She never even teach me how to cook but she told me how to hate. She disrespect all my decision. She hates all my boyfriend without any reasonable reason *she just said that its an motherly instict* She keeps a distance from us, her children, yet extremely nice to her friends. She's whining and whining and whining and has everyone to blame but herself. She dissapointed to me in many ways I dont think I deserve. She swears on us and hope for many bad things many times inspite of hoping what's best for us even when she doesnt know what we will become. She never be grateful for what she have. She made me cries many times more than a man could made me. She demands many things from me, since she wants me to be what she failed to be. Herself.

I cant leave her. I love her. Im not gonna abandoned her. She's my mother and her blessing's my heaven. I will try to stood still, even when Im hurt, just like now. Im not gonna let her screwing me even when she keeps bugging me. I am older and wiser, I cant just let a motherly issue breaks me. I am gonna keep a distance, just to keep it down.

But I am not her, and I dont wannabe her. I dont want to live her track, or the path she wants me through. Im going to live my own. I have my believe. I believe Im gonna make it. I just need her blessing, even when she disagree with the way Im going through. I dont need her hesitating me. I need her to believe me. I need her to let me be me. I need her to stop telling me, and yelling at me just to be her. I know she's unsatisfy with her life, and has a lot of things going on with my grandmother back then. But what makes her think Im gonna be just like her? Im not.

I hate her, but I hate myself when I hate her. I love her still, I just cant be her. And I wont. I will not. I will be a better mother than she ever was. I owe myself that even before my daughter to be. I know better. And better I will be.

GREY'S ANATOMY VS SCRUBS

TV series? Im a big fan! But not anything Indonesian :p I stop loving them since "Janjiku" (GOD its my guilty pleasure!) Two of TV Series that I collected are SCRUBS and GREY'S ANATOMY. Both are once recommended by friends.

Talking about my favorite, they still lose it to FRIENDS. Ah... Even its not that great, I love FRIENDS BEST! :D But SCRUBS and GREY'S are also good.

Let me compare them, in my own humble opinion as someone who love to watch, not at all an expert of film industries or something. They both has an equal core, since both are telling about how is it to live as a doctor, in their own perspective.

I can tell you, just before I watch these series (I didnt watch ER, not my era) I dont think of doctors as a human being. Haha I know they're people, but I cant even think about them in relationship, joking, or even having sex! They just doctors. No more no less.

Grey's Anatomy has Meredith Grey as the leading role. We see through episodes by episodes by a prologue and epilogue from her. The story takes place in Seattle Grace Hospital. It is one of the best teaching hospital there. She entered the hospital as a first year surgeon's intern with 20 others. Trying to get a real life with a very hectic job and messy love line, plus family issues (no wonder this girl looks so old). Not only tells about her, but also her 4 intern's group friend, Christina, Alex, Izzie and George. With their own characters and have their own stories. The competition, the self-recognition, friendship between them and the residents and attendings and others make a very good drama! Something that I dont really appreciate is why in this kind of series (the one where your job is your life), exchange partner is something that as if is a must! She's with him, she broke up with him, he's with her friend, she's dating his whatsoever bla bla bla. It's chunky a first, but it's not anymore after 5 seasons. I just watch the 5th season and I dont find it as amusing as when I first saw it (marathonly :p) So Grey's Anatomy is just something that I watch since there's nothing better to see.

Now SCRUBS. GOD I LOVE THIS SHOW! A little bit different from Grey's Anatomy where all the people's are surgeons, SCRUBS is more like General's doctor having an issue to surgeons. Silly, because one of the leading role is a surgeon.

As in Grey's Anatomy, we have here John Dorian as the leading role that narate the stories. Silly yet so cute doctor which is very busy with his own mind and having the best stupid expression! Yeap. SCRUBS is more like a comedy, but it has its own drama. But you dont focus on the drama. It pictures the life in the hospital. The hope, the dreams, again, the competition and relationship they have. There's not as much characters here as in Grey's Anatomy. JD, Turk, Elliot, Carla and Perry Cox are the main characters with their own style. And the love line's not as complicated as in Grey's either. Its more natural, with a touch of some exaggerate fools that makes is really worth to collect! To cheer you up! ;)

So when it comes to the story, I prefer SCRUBS then Grey's Anatomy.

But hey! Grey's not that bad. It still a good drama, and also has the BEST SOUNDTRACK EVER!

Gosh... there's so many list of songs this serial used, and I cant decided what's my favorite since I love most of them! Tegan and Sara, Lenka, Inggrid Michaelson, and many more!

Scrubs's OST is good, but Grey's Anatomy's OST is AWESOME!

But they have one song in common, that i guess it's somekind of a must when you make a show about a hospital life. THE FRAY's How To Save a Life! I love that song too!

Hm... Im waiting for the 8th season of SCRUBS to get in Indonesia right now. My downloaded file's not have good quality, so I guess I better wait. But for all I know, its not getting tenuous like at all, it just getting funnier! :D

Ah... my Indonesian film-maker... Just tell me when I can find something atleast half as good as them? Not more and even much more craps on local TV?

QUOTES : GREY'S ANATOMY

Im gonna write about Grey's Anatomy later. Meanwhile this is one of my favorite quote from that TV Show

If you don't wanna craps happen to you, stop accepting it and demand something more
-Christina Yang, Grey's Anatomy

True that sometimes we do hate all the craps that keep happening to us, but not rarely, we do nothing to stop it and adjust with it. Why should we when we can stop accepting it rather than keep saying to ourself that this is just the way it is, because its not always like that! How to? Oh, you think about it yourself. You deal your craps, I deal with mine.

FATTY FATSO FAT FAT FAT

Lately when I accidentaly ran into someone that I havent met in a while, they intend to ask me, "Hey... have you married? Are you pregnant? How months?". Really. Some of them asking me seriously with their excited-to-hear-a-good-news look. I usually ignore it and talk about something else but me and away from my-pregnant-belly! But sometimes when I think I wont see them again for a long time, I will say that this is my third month. And they believe it and congrat me. Silly? Nope. That's pathetic my dear.

I dont know why I've been extremely weighing for the last six months. I even reached 155 pounds! That's not normal since Im just 168cm. Maybe because my bad eating habit. And to make it worse, its been a lifetime since I exercising. GOD my fat ass makes me lazy! My outfits failed me.. and I even got a strech mark on my tummy! Damn. I might have to remind you.. IM NOT PREGNANT! I HAVENT EVEN MARRIED YET!

Just tell me the fastest way to loose my weight. I cant do a diet. I cant stop eating. I eat when im stressed, and I've been very stressed out since Im jobless and prideless. A moment on the lips forever on the hips saying doesnt work for me! What should I do? What should I do? Im three times bigger than my man! Thats not normal!

Geez Im panicking!

Quotes : FRIENDS

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Joey: Hey can you imagine if the chick and the duck had a baby? we could name it Chuck!

Chandler: ...or.. Dick.

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Joey: "Hey Ross I got a science question. If the homosapians, were in fact HOMO-sapians, is that why they're extinct?"

Ross: "Joey, Homosapians are... people."

Joey: "Hey I'm not judging."

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Ah Joey Tribbiani...

You always make my day! :D

What do you think your baby is for?

I am not yet a parent, but I know and I will must be. And when I am one, I promise myself that me and my life's partner will be that great parents that I always want to have. Im giving my childs that.

But you know how stupid some parents can be sometimes? And how they can easily forget what's the real meaning of having child?

I found one this afternoon on my way back home. Here in Bandung we called the public transportation angkot. Since i have no own vehicle, thats what i ride every single day. That's so much to be complained about this angkot things. But let me do that later. This time let me tell you about this one passenger in my angkot home that nauseated me so damn much!

By his posture I can tell that he's an early thirty years old man, with a toddler he hold in his arms. Beside him there was this lovely lady that I guess my age and she was smiling to the cute baby.

And the stupid father, I cant remember why and what's been happening, but i heard him said to his baby, "come on... ask the pretty lady beside you, nice lady, can i have your phone numbers..." with the baby voice he made. His son was very fussy and said something that no one can get, not even his stupid father. But the father didnt stop right there. He continued smiling and speaking in a stupid voice to his baby, "ask her dear lady, do you have a boyfriend yet? will you be my father date?" and smiling to the poor girl beside him that I could tell that she's even more nauseated that i was and looked very uncomfortable while that stupid man kept looking at her and smiling disgustingly! And the baby? He cried....

WHAT THE HELL WERE YOUR STUPID HEAD THINKING HEY YOU FILTHY MAN!

Do you think that you're baby's some kind of flirting material? Or was that really your baby? I cant tell it for sure even when you refer to yourself as dad to him, since you're so inappropriate as a father! No wonder your wife left you with the baby! You're so nauseatingly unbelieveable! I would love to kick your ass if only i were that poor lady!

What kind of parent use their baby as a magnet to trick the opposite sex? The irresponsible one! And no doubt about it, if his parenting style as bad as his flirting, that poor baby's gonna end up just exactly like him. Oh God, bless him with a better role model for his own good.

I dont know what kind of parent me and my partner will be. But not that one for sure!!!

Jobless, Prideless...

My father called my this evening. It's been a while since the last time he called me just to ask how am I doing. He used to call my youngest brother, the apple of daddy's eyes thats him. I dont really care. Im not jealous or what. It is true that I dont have a good communication's quality with my dad, but its not a matter anymore. I love him, he loves me, we're not really a happy family, but we're good. We're fine.

But this evening he called. Me. Asked how I've been doing. He didnt ask much about anything else but one. What am I doing, like really doing with my life right now.

Why did you quit that announcing job you said you love? Do you really quit? What would you do next? You dont want to continue your study that I can understand, but now what you've been doing since you finish your study? Dont you want to get a job? Dont you want to try to go to Jakarta? Sort of thing... But what a great daddy I have. At the end, he just said Okay... you do what you want to do, but rethink about it good. And if you're kind of broke (like i actually am :p) just let me know (and I wont do this unless im dying and i really have to...the last bite of my pride speaking)

Okay. I admit it. Im J O B L E S S. This stupid internship as a school counselor that I've been doing for my last two months doesnt seems promising. Still Im clueless what to do for the next two months when I've finished this program. I dont have a true license to be a counselor. I need to attend somekind of training program that will cost me at least 2 millions. Where the hell I can get that much money? Nope. Im not about to ask anything more from my parents than their monthly charity for me. Im not gonna do that. But what should I do then?

U're gonna easily say, "GET A JOB!". Dont you think im trying to? I send some applications to several companies and none of them reply. Im ignored. Thats sucks since I never think of myself as a looser before. But now I begin to. Hate it to my very cell.

Am I being unrealistic and idealistic or even daydreamer to expect a job that I would really love? That I will be doing it with all my heart even when it seems unworthy for everybody else.

But now the worst thing is... I dont even know what i want to do. Im not really sure. Think i've lost my dreams, that i cant even remember what is it in the first place. Im blurred. By my own lost. Lost in this prideless hell just because i've been jobless for so long.

Dont ask me about shame. I am humiliated. My mother thinks that i am humiliating. My dad never even once said it to my face, but im afraid he begins to lost his faith on me.

Am i a failure? GOD, please dont let me be. I cant let them down. Not my parents. Not my loved one. Not my younger bro and sis. Not myself! I will pull mybest to be better! I just dont find the way yet...

Lord... what is it thats waiting for me behind all of this darkest time? Im hanging here. Im trying. I dont want to loose this little faith i still have.inside me. That i soon will, be what i really want to be in mylife. I dont want to loose that little hope that lights my days. Show me my way, Robb.. Amien.

SEX Position

and what did u expecting anyway?

DAMN!

DAMN! My blog got reset!!!! AAAARRRRRHHHHH!!!

It's gonna take a while!!!!

I know mine is new... Still i've been adding many widgets and it just gone!!!

Hiks... lost my mood :(

BROKEN

I'm wondering is it a broken hearted season? Is that why it so rainy lately? Dunno. The thing is I see a heart broken everywhere surround me. I can tell from their status or notes on facebook, or they actualy told me in person what happened... or the just gimme some signs that I have to figure out what's wrong.

Some of them ended their relationships. Which is a good thing they do it now, not after a marriage. That would be so much worse than now. Yes, I know the heart knows no different when it's broken. Hurt. That's it. No more no less. And its not only about relationship. It’s about life. Wondering how a things can turned you down and hopeless… cant feel your feet on the ground. But do you believe in an old saying that everything happens for a reason? I do believe. There's a reason beyond your pain, your tears, your loss. The mistery will revealed. Later. Can you wait?

This is a song that got me through my hard time *considering broke up with my latest ex is hard by then :p* I first heard this song on my way home to Bandung from Bekasi, after alot of crying season with my BFF Meiska. I don't know this song before. I don't even know who sang it. I just felt that she sang to me. I can't get the lyrics out of my mind, thou I just remember one line I have been hurt and I know only time will tell, time will heal.

Thanks for a billion times to technology! I googled it, and I find it. The song that lift me up perfectly! BROKEN by ELISA. She's not a very popular singer in Indonesia. Most of my friends never even heard of her. But I'm a fan now. Atleast for this great one song she sang that gave me strength and hope. Just what I need on a darkest time. I share it to my partner, and this song is memorable for us. We might even gonna play it for our wedding's playlist :D

You can download the song here. Meanwhile, here's the lyrics.

Hard times flowing and my eyes
couldn't see stars shining
My heart couldn't feel the
beauty of the rising sun
And I'm lost like a bottle that
floats in the sea for ever
Will somebody pick up my hope?
Will somebody try?
Will I realize?

'cause it's broken broken
Something got broken like stolen
Stolen, like if it was stolen
And hurting, hurting
I have been hurting and now
Only time will tell
Time will heal

Just pieces of truth that I chose to keep and
No matter if now they are gone
No matter if I am alone
Still I can get back on my feet and walk on
As I know there was something to learn
I know there will always be
more worth moving on for

Though, it's broken broken
Something got broken like stolen
Stolen, like if it was stolen
And hurting hurting
I have been hurting and now
Only time will tell

I'd love to be one of those
colorful early summer days
When everybody is happy that you came
Everybody smiles back at you
as soon as your eyes cross
their eyes
But something has to happen first
I know winter has to come before it blossoms

So it's broken broken
Something got broken like stolen
Stolen, like if it was stolen
And hurting hurting
I have been hurting and now
Only time will tell
Time will heal

Be strong dear ;)

To My Beloved

30 things for your 30s

1. I'm not ok to pet, that I hope U get

2. Smoking is BADDDDDDD

3. When you don't like what people do to you, let them know

4. But just don't be rude... you could sometimes

5. Smile to a sucker makes you rise above

6. It's not OK not to reply my messages like at all

7. 66 pounds it's not a normal 30 years old man weight... not even for a little man like you! So stop smoking!

8. Get mad to me when I do you wrong, that's ok... but let me understand later... we are just as same stubborn.

9. Keeping any pictures of your exes even when you said it's an art is NOT GOOD

10. Don't sleep late, and don't sleep too long.

11. When you're still living at your mother's, try to do the dishes yourself

12. Always use that glasses. I love how you look with it ;)

13. I'm sorry I cant give you anything for your birthday today... :(

14. Use underwear might do you good ;)

15. Never use that red shirt again. You look like an eleven years old boy. I know your mum loves it, but i don't. I hate it.

16. Start saving, please.

17. You're sometimes a bigger whiner that I am. Make it less.

18. I don't care about how you were or what you had. I care about who and how and what you are and will. You better do too.

19. I love when I think you need me. I'm a needy for a needy.

20. Remind me constantly that you love me.

21. Yeah, ok. Loving Stephen Seagel is normal, even for you :p

22. Surround yourself with that positivity once made me fall for you. Don't ever loose it.

23. When I give you vitamins, you consume it!

24. Make a template for this blog of mine, please :D Greeny and clovery one if you don't mind ;)

25. I'm not a big hearted creature with a great sense of patience. Please remember our dreams and make it real. Don't make me lose my hope.

26. Don't get turned on just everywhere :p

27. Don't runaway from a shitty situation. Face it. Im with you.

28. Keep your libido high, and make that genes you have with normal, not at all on mutation. You still owe me a cute and smart baby!

29. I'm waiting for "the ring"

30. I love you, still and more...

FINN'S GIRL

This is one of the movie i recently saw.

“Satisfyingly adult in its depiction of female sexuality” - that’s an endorsement from LA Weekly for this movie.

The cover’s poster is two woman holding each other tight and smiling happily, as they’re in love. So i guess this is a lesbian movie, right? But not the one you find in porn or something! Nope… stop hoping for that.

This is a film by Dominique Cardona (i don’t even know who Cardona is) that won Jury Award, Best Feature Talent of Fire Island Film and Video Fest and the winner of Outstanding Emerging Talent of Outfest LA Gaust Film Fest. That supposed to mean something, right? That this movie’s atleast good even it’s not great. I tend to watch movie that won many award, no matter what it is, so i thought this would be good.

But I don’t know. I just don’t get this movie or what’s the point of the movie anyway. So this is a film about a lesbian, but a widow lesbian. Dr. Finn Jefferies is a thoroughly modern lesbian, far to feisty and happy to ever bother hiding her sexuality. But then she lost her beloved lover, Nancy, who left her with an eleven years daughter Zelly Bean. Finn’s not the motherly type, that was Nancy, and she has never be that close with Zelly.

As an abortion practice doctor, Finn’s too busy with her own life to give a good attention to her only daughter. The situation become worse when she gets some threats from people who hate her business. Covered by two police, she try to save her own life and trying hard not to give up the clinic she and Nancy established. While Zelly, doing her ways to get Finn’s attention with shoplifting, smoking dope and skipping school.

Finn really could not cope with her new role as a single parent for Zelly and that’s making her stress out. She loves Zelly too much but she just doesn’t know how to let her know. There’s another truth that she’s been hiding for so long and the time has come for the truth to come out.

But the ending of this movie was just too flat. There’s no good climex provided. Not even the matter’s of lesbian’s issue that this movie seems want to pull, but it just failed. Well, interested anyway?

A Little Treat. with Lulur Bali Sekar Jagad

Have you ever been go to Bali? Well, i highly suggest you to! The beautiful view, the beautiful beach, the great beauty of nature’s perfectly there. Land of God anyway!Me? Ugh... Its been a damn long time! :p

Maybe for all this time all you knew about Bali is how great the beach and the view and all, but this one is the great thing Bali gives you... and me! :D

Lulur Bali Sekar Jagad is a great herbal cosmetic that you can use for scrubbing your body. There’s so many Lulur there in Bali, but Lulur Bali Sekar Jagad is one of the best! It is cheap and packaged in a small round tube. One tube can be used for about three times of scrubbing.

The application of Lulur Bali Sekar Jagad is just that simple. You just have to spread it all over your dry body, left it for about five minutes to let it stick perfectly there, and then you rub it over and over until it’s fall of with your grimes. Rub it for about twenty minutes from your top to toe, and then wash it with warm water. You will feel you skin’s completely soft and smooth, and nicely fragrant!

What makes it so good? It contains a lot of Milk Protein and Olive Oil plus Coconut Oil. Skin’s food it is ;) There’s many kind of fragrance for this Lulur Bali Sekar Jagad. There’s green tea, that’s very good for shinning your skin. Also lemonade to freshen and lift your mood. But my favorite is strawberry! Is is so nice to smell your own skin after you done using this strawberry Lulur Bali Sekar Jagad. It feels like I am a strawberry youghurt or something, with a very smooth skin.

There’s no doubt that the herbal cosmetic’s the better one for your daily use, and so as Lulur Bali Sekar Jagad! Try it and make your skin happy! :)

I am making mine happy.. a good treat for me before i treat my partner on his birthday tomorrow! :D DOH! Still cant find anything to give him! Me covered with whipped cream and cherry? Hahahaha I doubt it :p

Repost : Does Love Need a Reason?

Lady : Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?

Man : I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..

Lady : You can't even tell me the reason...
how can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?

Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.

Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!

Man : Ok..ok!!! Erm...
because you are beautiful,
because your voice is sweet,
because you are caring,
because you are loving,
because you are thoughtful,
because of your smile,
because of your every movements

The lady felt very satisfied with the answer. Unfortunately, a few days later, the
Lady met with an accident and became comma.
The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content:

Darling,

Because of your sweet voice that I love you...
Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your care and concern that I like you..
Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your smile, because of your every movements that I love you..
Now can you smile? Now can you move? No, therefore I cannot love you...

If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.

Do love need a reason? NO!

Therefore, I still love you...

And love doesn't need a reason.

"Sometimes the best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, cannot be
touched, but can be felt in the heart."

I Love When It Rain

i love when it rain…

i’ll let my self get soaked in

let it take away all the pain

the sorrow

the regret

the fear

the hesitate

the hatred

and wash it over

to come clean…

to be pure as once…

let it pouring down on me…

to let me be me

like i always long to be…

i love when it rain

Marry Me... Would U?

What is it about a marriage that i love so much? Was it the wedding itself? The life after it? The ideas of never be lonely again when it comes to bed, and open my eyes in the very next day? The hopes of having a great little lovely family that will stick to you and make my life full?

Well, if you asked me, Im afraid im not gonna be able to answer it. I dont know. I dont know exactly what is it that makes me want to get marry, and not just get it in time, i want it soon! I am craving for a marriage!

I love myself. I love my single life, I love my family, I love my relationship with my boyfriend. Im not complaining anything. But I want more.

For me, marriage is somekind of reassurement *that’s not even a word :p* That I am not alone, that I have someone, that eventually me and my partner are gonna be better for we are together, that Im gonna have a better purpose of life. Dont i have them now? No. Not really. I used to labeled myself insecure, lonely and neurotic. That's not what you love from yourself. That's not what I love. And since I know, and realize, that I have a bonding and relationship issues for whole time, I want to make a change. A change in me. A change in my life. I need to have that security feeling. I need to stop doubting, hesitating. I need to be settled.

That is why I wanna get married. Soon. ASAP. I think Im ready. Im not impulsive. Im confident. That is something I earn. I WANT TO BE MARRIED. I WANT A MARRIAGE. My partner does to. We are ready. We want it. We're not ready financially. That's sucks.

They said marriage cots like a billion. It is very expensive. And we dont have the money we need for the wedding. I never want it anyway. I just need a simple wedding. The most important thing is that we're registered. Legal. Legitimate. And not sinful just to have sex :p *GOD I want to have sex!* I dont need craps!

What about the day after? We'll figure something out. We must. We have to. We'll responsible. GOD... am I being idealistic? Am I unrealistic? Someone said i am once. But this is what I want for mylife. This is what I've been longing since forever. To have a family on my own. Life could be sucks, marriage could be hard. But we're all survivor, arent we? Dear love, we're gonna survive, right? I’m not afraid. I believe we can manage and control goods. After all, its all whats in our head that lead.

Then why aren't they approved? Why parents dont want their child to be happy? Why they dont see it out of their own perspective? And you, the love of mylife... Will you struggle for us? Will you grow up and take care of us? Will you be the strength I needed, since I dont have it with me?

GOD I wanna get married...

LETS TALK ABOUT SEX :D

LIBRA
Very gentle.
Very romantic.
Nice.
Love is one of a kind.
Silly and fun, sweet!
Have own unique sexiness.
Most caring person you will ever meet!
AmAzInG n BeD..!!!
GREAT SEX APPEAL




CANCER
Great Kisser.
Very high sex appeal.
Great in bed
Great listeners
Love is one of a kind.
Very romantic.
Rare to find!
Silly and fun, sweet!
Trustworthy.
Not one to f*ck with.
Most caring person you will ever meet!



PISCES
Caring.
Smart.
Center of attention.
Too Sexy, DAMN IT.
Very high sex appeal.
Has the last word.
Extremely weird but in a good way.
Super good in bed



AQUARIU$
Trustworthy.
Sexy.
One of a kind.
Loves being in long-term relationships.
Extremely energetic.
unpredictable.
from the future.
will exceed your expectations.
Amazing in bed, THE BEST LOVERS.


ARIES
Outgoing.
Spontanious.
Not one to f*ck with.
Erotic.
Funny.
Take you on trips to the moon in bed.
Flirtatious


TAURUS
Aggressive.
Freak in bed.
Rare to find!
Loves being in long relationships.=)
Likes to give a good fight for what they want.
Extremely outgoing.
Outstanding kisser.
Sexual as f*ck.



LEO
Great talker.
Sexy.
Dominant in relationships.
Always Horny.
Laid back.
Knows how to have fun.
Is really good at f*cking.
Great kisser.
Center of attention.
Outgoing.
Down to earth.
Addictive.
Attractive.
Loud.
Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative.
Not one to mess with.
Rare to find.
Good when found.



VIRGO
Sexy.
Always horny(LIKE RIGHT NOW)
Freak in bed.
Always wants the last word.
Caring.
Smart.
Addictive.
Attractive.
Loud.
Loyal.



SCORPIO
EXTREMELY sexy.
Energetic.
Predict future.
Most erotic.
Freak in bed.
GREAT kisser.
Not one to mess with.
Always get what they want.



SAGITTARIUS
Spontaneous.
Horny.
Freak in Bed.
High sex appeal.
Rare to find.
Great when found.
Always horny


GEMINI
Nice.
Love is one of a kind.
Great listeners
Very Good in bed.
Lover not a fighter, but will still punch your lights
out.
Trustworthy.
Loud
Talkative.
Outgoing
Loves being in long relationshipsS


CAPRICORN
Sassy.
Intelligent.
Sexy.
Predict future.
Irrestible, awesome kisser.
Great talker.
Always gets what he or she wants.
BY FAR the BEST in BED

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cant wait to get in bed :))